abby and the presents

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Abby checking out the presents. I think there might be some food back there. She won't leave the tree alone.

Christmas is over. Why do I still have stress?

Because my youngest step-brother Ivan (6 yrs old) was admitted to the hospital on Christmas Eve. I guess the three different medications they kept switching him to in the past 2 weeks basically just started shutting down his liver. Which made his body produce ammonia. Which made him sleep all day and shake like he had Parkinson's disease when he was awake. They took him off the meds and luckily, Christmas day he was released. Can you imagine being 6 years old and waking up Christmas morning in the hospital? I can't and it made me so upset I've been crying off and on since I found out about it.

My dad, Mary Jane, Ivan, Jared and Frasier the dog were supposed to be leaving today to come back to Rochester for about 5 days to visit since I haven't seen any of them except my dad since they moved. Well, that's not happening anymore obviously because of the above mentioned hospital stay. My dad says he'll try and come down next week but only him and the dog. As much grief as I say my family causes me I miss them and would like to see them and especially give Ivan a hug until he starts screaming to let go of him.

My brother had spent the past week with them so I didn't get to see him either for Christmas. His train was supposed to be in Rochester at 8am this morning. As of 10:30am, the train is due to be back until about 1:30pm today. I have to work at 4pm today so I guess I won't be seeing much of him today either.

Before I found out that the Bunzol's were having a mini-crisis in Illinois, I had suggested to my wonderful boyfriend that we should invite his entire family and my family over for dinner on Tuesday since in the 3 years we've been dating they have yet to ever have met each other plus, we've never had them over for dinner. What the hell was I thinking?!?

I thought I was gonna have a stress free day tomorrow since it's my day off and I was gonna see my 'rents. Now, I will be cleaning the house for people who aren't my family that I just spent the entire day with yesterday.

Right know, my mother is probably in heaven either laughing her ass off at my stupidity of inviting over 8 people for dinner when I've never cooked for more than 4 or crying for me 'cause once again I don't get to see my father when I'm supposed to 'cause something always screws it up. I'm not mad at Ivan for getting sick. He's 6 years old. Not like he planned it. But God had better makes this coming year one of ease and happiness or I swear I'm gonna burn down the city.

Holy cow, why am I still writing on here when I should be cleaning?

Complete nothingness

Today is my dad and stepmother's one year wedding anniversary. What do you get for a one year anniversary? Is it paper?

It's too damn cold outside. If I had wanted to live in sub-zero weather I would have moved to Antarctica.

Thank God all my Christmas shopping is done. No more having to brave the stupid mall traffic and long lines.

Someone tell me again why I'm scanning everything in the club for the second time in a week?

Listening to Jessica and Ashlee Simpson sing "The Little Drummer Boy" makes me physically ill.

There's half a bottle of wine in the frig that is soooooo calling my name right now.

Somehow Christmas Day will be busier than Thanksgiving and I don't even have any family in NY this time.

I miss working my normal hours with Allee, Rae, Felecia and... no that's it. I miss them.

My boyfriend is currently watching some really fucked up movie starring Brittany Murphy, the guy from Almost Famous, the chick that almost does the father in American Beauty and some other semi-big name star and it's all about drugs and it's very odd and I'm too tired to even try to wrap my head around it. It reminds me of Trainspotting but way way way worse. Trainspotting was good. This is crap.

I wonder how I can make the half pack of cigarettes last me through until Friday?

I have Black Eyed Peas stuck in my head. "Lets get it started"

I know I got a digital camera for Christmas and dammit, I want it now!

Thanks everyone who sent me and Jim a card for Christmas. It was much appreciated especially when there is money inside.

Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year!

Enjoy

If Women Ruled...

A man would no longer be considered a "good catch" simply because he is breathing and has a good job
Medical research money would be spent on developing new birth control methods for men
Women with cold hands would give men prostate exams
Baby-sitting, doing dishes, making beds and general house keeping would be considered "Macho"
The hem of men's pants would go up or down depending on the economy
Men would be forced to purchase overpriced clothes every season
Minnie Mouse would get equal billing with Mickey
Overweight men would be encouraged to wear girdles
PMS or Menopause would be a legitimate defense in court
Men would come with papers showing:
Their true identity
Marital and employment status
If they live with their mother
If they've had all their shots
Shopping would be considered an aerobic activity
Men would get reputations for sleeping around
"Ms Magazine" would have an annual swimsuit issue featuring scantily clad male models
Men who designed women's shoes would be forced to wear them
Men would not be allowed to eat gas-producing foods within two hours of bedtime
Men would be as attentive after marriage as they were before
Men would be secretaries for female bosses, working twice as hard for none of the credit
Little girls would read "Snow White and the Seven Hunks"
Men would earn 70 cents for every dollar women make
Men would bring drinks, chips and dip to women watching soap operas
Men would have to get "Playboy" for the articles, because there would be no pictures
Men would learn and be required to use phrases like:
I'm sorry
I love you
You're beautiful
Of course you don't look fat in that outfit
Go to sleep-I'll take care of the baby
You go rest, I'll fix dinner
Men would be judged entirely by their looks, women by their accomplishments
Men would sit around and wonder what women are thinking
Men would pay as much attention to their women as their cars and sports teams
All toilet seats would be nailed down
Men would work on relationships as much as they work on their careers
TV news segments on sports would never run longer than one minute
All men would be forced to spend one month a year in a PMS simulator
Men would have their wedding rings permanently attached so they can't pretend to be single
During mid-life crisis, men would get hot-flashes and women would date 19 year old boys
After a baby is born, men would take a six-week paternity leave to wait on their wives hand and foot
For basic training, soldiers would have to take care of a two-year old for six weeks
A female employee would be noticed for her work performance, not her bra size
Singles bars would have metal detectors to weed out men hiding wedding rings in their pockets

So yesterday at work

I had to deal with dragonwoman, stupid members, and exboyfriends. First dragonwoman was insane yesterday. Everytime she doesn't work for more than 4 days, she comes back and loses her mind. She takes returns away before I'm done returning them, she's cleaning as I'm trying to sign up new members, she puts files away on her lunch when she's off the clock...in short, she's annoying when she wants to be. All I wanted to do when she was there was be somewhere else. It's amazing how quiet it is when she's not at the frontline. Example:

Dragonwoman at the top of her lungs: WHO HAS THE 81 KEY? DO YOU HAVE THE 81 KEY?

Now this wouldn't be so bad if we weren't standing right in front of her. So our manager got her to go on the floor and do work and give us peace at the frontline. As soon as she walked away, it sounded like the desert. It was so quiet and peaceful.

Second, I had this woman come up to the member services desk and told me that there was a tv that was on the shelf that she wanted to buy. I asked her the name of it and she said Quasar. I tried doing a search for Quasar on the computer and nothing was coming up and I was pretty positive I had never seen a tv for sale ever by the name of Quasar at our store. So I told her to show me the tv. Well, we walk over to the tv and she points to the "demo" tv that we use to promote our specials like vitamins, wipers, vacuum cleaners, etc. I tell her that those tv's are owned by the store to show what the specials are. Then she goes "So the tv down there is the same too?" pointing to the tv on the same type of cart a few aisles down that is blasting some sort of steamer video promotion. And I'm thinking to myself "What kind of moron are you that you want a tv that we've never sold, that has been sitting in the same spot for the past 18 years, that is obviously missing some of the buttons on it, that wasn't even turned on which means it probably didn't work anymore anyway?" When I told her that they weren't for sale, she looked at me like I was crazy! She was obviously mad at me that I told her her precious Quasar tv wasn't for sale and was owned by the store. Freakin' go to Big Lots. I'm sure they sell Quasar there. Good grief.

Third, my first "boyfriend for a second" came in to work today with his fiance. That was weird and akward. We only dated for a second but he was like my first kiss and everything. Plus this is the same guy that said he would never get married, blah blah blah and he's getting married in June. Just random that he showed up literally 5 minutes after I punched in. Then about an hour later, I saw an ex's grandfather too. It was like Ghosts of boyfriends past or something. Maybe today will be better.

So I've finished about 4 Christmas presents. Only about 15 more to go. Ugh. I hope Jim ends up getting a tree today. That would be cool.

Later people.

Christmas List '04

Here's my list people. Study it, learn it, give it. :)

1. digital camera to go with the new printer
2. cush pillow from BJ'S
3. cd player for my car
4. tires for my car
5. one month car payment
6. anything frogs
7. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind DVD
8. Ring (you know who you are)
9. World Peace (I sound like Miss America)
10. I did have 10 things but ones been bought :)

Ready for vacation

howdy people. I've only been working like 34 hours a week but it seems like I've been working 60. I don't know if it's because I've been closing a lot of the past 2 weeks or if because it's getting busier. All I know is that I really want to have off like2 weeks to do nothing. Or maybe I just need a new job that will seem like more of a challenge than telling people about some stupid 15 month membership. Last night was stupid. This old woman came up and wanted a one day pass and I tried to explain to her that we weren't doing that right now because of the trial and 15 month membership. As soon as I said the word membership, she would cut me off. I couldn't tell her that it was free; I couldn't tell her anything. She kept saying "I don't want a membership. I don't want a membership. I just want to shop for the day!" I kept trying to explain to her that with the 60 day membership it wouldn't cost her anything but the dumb bitch kept interrupting me. I couldn't even get far enough to tell her it was free. So finally I told her that if she didn't want the membership then she couldn't shop. Of course then she went over to Adam and start complaining to him that she wanted the one day pass. And once again they went through the same thing all over again until one of the cashiers finally yelled at her "Do you realize that it's free?" And then she had the most embarrased look on her face and then 'cause Adam is just oh so wonderful, sent her back up to me. So when she came back up she wanted to know if she had to pay for it. Duh! We just said it was free. I told her that I had tried to tell her but she kept interrupting me. By the time she got out the door, everyone hated her and wished she would fall and break a hip or something. Plus, she told Jen at the door that we gave her a free one because of her inconvenience. NO! We gave you a free one 'cause we're giving everyone a free one! I hate people.

Before I started this blog, I was content. Now I'm dreading work..shit.

new toy

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so jim bought us a new printer and it has a scanner and copier on it. When my dad and stepmother moved, I ended up taking a lot of old pictures which I've been dying to get on cd. Anyway, while I was going through them I found some pictures of my mom when she was my niece's age (Chandler's 7). I thought it would be cool to show the resemblance. My mom is the first picture, Chandler is the second.

New job on the horizon?

So today I went in for a test/interview with Preferred Care for data entry operator. The test went great... 8500 cph with only 1 error. The interview went well... she said she plans on calling me back hopefully in the next week to meet with the next person in the hiring process. And now that I'm home, all of a sudden I feel like I have a guilty conscience. 'Cause in less than three weeks, the Christmas season will be upon us at BJ'S and if I do get this job I'm gonna have to go part-time again there. CRAP! They already don't have enough people to work as it is and if I do get this job (which would pay at least a buck more) they are gonna have even less people. I guess I feel bad 'cause BJ'S (as weird as it sounds) feels like my second family and I will feel like I'm letting them down. I hate feeling this way.

Maybe that's why I'm always so emotional at work. The only other time I get that emotional is when I'm dealing with my dad and brother. I guess as much as I hate BJ'S, I guess a part of me actually likes dealing with my co-workers and such. It's kinda like dreading knowing that your weird Great-Aunt is coming for the holidays and dreading it the entire time and then the finding out the day before that she can't come 'cause she has the flu or something. You're a little relieved but at the same time kinda looked forward to her picking on your family members.

Maybe I'm just on too many cold medicines and should go back to sleep. Naw... I should probably call BJ'S and ask if I can work for a few hours. LOL. "Sigh" Where's the phone?

The day the world went away

What the FUCK just happened to our country? What a pile of moose balls! I'm gonna drink the next 4 years away.

YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO VOTE!

Make sure you get out there people and vote for the person(s) who you think will do the best job ruining..I mean...running our country. I'm going to vote for the first time tomorrow and I'm sorta nervous but excited. Plus, Jim said if I didn't vote he was gonna break up with me. Good thing our voting place is literally right across the street. I have no reason not to vote. You have the right and the privilege to vote so exercise that right tomorrow and vote for me! I mean...uh....just vote.!

I think I need to start posting more but it feels like I have just way to much shit going on in my life.

Where do I begin?

Should I start with Friday when I had to leave work early and go to Rochester General 'cause my heart wouldn't stop racing or should I start with Saturday/Sunday and frantically trying to clean out Kacie's apartment so that she could get out of her apartment and move to Florida? Or what about today when my best friend finally kicked out her asshole of a boyfriend for good and I went to give her emotional support? Or what about Tuesday morning when I kept throwing up and couldn't go to work and my manager is insisting that it's morning sickness? Too much in the past week to go into. It's funny how sometimes absolutely nothing happens in my life and then out of nowhere everything happens. But such is life.

I think I might need to start taking my Lexapro again. Which sucks 'cause I haven't taken it since March! What sucks more is that it's $35/month and I don't have any $. Good times people...good times.

I'm a loser twice in one day

So I didn't get the Verizon job 'cause I didn't pass the computer assessment part. I only made 2 mistakes but it was enough for me not to get the job. I'm not good enough for anything other than BJ'S!!!!!!!!!! Someone shoot me now.

I'm a loser

Got my phone call today from Bosch Security stating that I did NOT get the job I had applied for. I knew I wouldn't. Oh well, maybe something good will come from Verizon today. Off to take my shower.

A lot of nothing

So yesterday I had my phone interview with Verizon for a customer service job in their new call center and now I have to go in and take a computer assessment test blah blah blah on Wednesday. Which supposedly takes about 2 hours. I also get to meet with (hopefully) my new respite family for the Health Association on Wednesday so that maybe I can be making some extra money again. Let's see, so far I've sold CD's twice this week to Record Archive but I made about $36 which went right to gas and smokes. I've also sold a plate that used to belong to my Great-Aunt Rose for $10. Which the antique store will probably turn around and sell it for at least $40. But such is life. I'm wishing that this election was already over 'cause I swear to God I'm having dreams about it. I'm sure by the time the election rolls around, I would have had an anxiety attack about it 'cause I'm pretty sure Jim means it when he says if Bush gets re-elected he's moving to Toronto. Dear God, let Kerry win!

So basically, yeah

Had my interview yesterday at Bosch Security. I sounded like a MORON! It was completely a behavioral interview and I haven't done one of those in 4 years. I sounded stupid, I looked stupid, I am stupid. Plus on top of all that, I have $10 until Friday, no gas and no cigarette's. Oh and no food in the house. Actually, that's a lie. We have food...ketchup, mustard, half an onion, pickles and maybe a can of tomato soup. I hate my life. I've already sold most of my cd's to Record Archive last week just to get gas money. Maybe I'll hit up the Record Archive on East Ave and maybe Media Play. Oh Lord, I need money. If there was ever a time I prayed for a miracle and didn't get it, you can make up for it now by letting me get this job that starts off at $11/hour. Thanks. Amen.

I really love watching movies with Steve Buscemi in them. He's so sarcastic and funny. I love it.

Harry Potter? Really?

So according to my LP manager at BJ'S, I look like Harry Potter with my new glasses. Somehow, I don't see the connection. Tonight wasn't all that bad for inventory. We only had to count reserve and we were done in 5 hours and we got free food. Bonus! Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be the bad night just because Regis Inventory doesn't know how to count bulk items. Counts will be wrong and we'll end up being there all night. Hopefully it won't be like last year where they were there for 13 hours. Although I do need money...but not that badly I guess.

I think I look smarter with my new glasses. I'm such a geek

I think I'm bitter today

All right all you faithful readers who never leave comments...it's time to leave a comment. But not on this post...go over to my "Revelations" blog 'cause I just posted part of a new story and I need some feedback. I even deliberately only posted half of it so that if you wanna read the rest you're gonna have to ask. Don't deny me my need to feel special! LOL

Anyways, has anyone noticed lately that no one says thank you anymore? Thank you for anything. Holding the door open for someone just gets silence. Try saying "bless you" to someone after they've just sneezed. No thank you. What about when you buy something for someone? Nothing. It's like they take you for granted. I'm tired of being taken for granted. People are just so self-centered it's ridiculous. And that doesn't include the above paragraph 'cause I know someone will comment and Thank You in advance. Maybe that's our problem with America and that's why Bush is in office. People have forgotten about common courtesy. "You want me to climb up three shelves to get the stupid garlic powder you can't live without or buy at another store? Sure. " So we climb and almost fall but we get it down and jackass just takes it and walks away. No thank you. "You're stupid clothes for your fugly baby won't scan at sel-checkout? Let me help you." Blah blah blah...no thank you. Like it's our fault your stupid. I swear to god this country is going to the crapper. As Cousin Eddie says in Christmas Vacation "The shitter's full." And we wonder why other countries hate us. We have the largest amount of self-centered people on one land mass. Now I'm not saying that everyone is an asshole...but jesus people! A freakin' thank you would be nice especially when someone does something for you that is so not selfish. "You need 10 bucks for the week? I've only got 9 but you can have it." And off they go with your money with no thank you and no intention of paying it back. And I'm not talking about strangers either. I'm talking about people you see all the time. And if K.M. is reading this, this isn't about you. You are one of the most unselfish people I know. The ones that read this probably agree with me and the ones that don't are the exact ones I'm talking about 'cause they are too busy not saying thank you and getting wasted. ARG!

okay birthday yesterday

I'm old. Yesterday started off kinda crappy with the rain waking me up at 9am so I didn't get to sleep in like I had wanted too. I was kinda sad 'cause I'm a year older and don't feel like I've done anything with my life. Haven't finished college (I graduated high school 10 years ago), not married, no kids, broke out my ass. So I called my dad in Chicago at like 8:30am his time and he made me feel a little better and then I called my brother and he made me laugh like he always does. He also let me borrow Old School for a week so I can laugh my ass off everytime Will Ferrell yells "We're going Streaking! C'mon! Everyone's doing!"

George and Kacie came over about 12:30 in the afternoon to deliver some cards and presents (thanks for the "Go Diva" chocolates Kacie!) and then Jim, Kacie and I were off to Perkins for some lunch. ("Would you like some beverwedge?" lol) Off to BJ'S to buy me a cheesecake instead of the norm birthday cake and then back to our house where Jim kicked our asses for the first time in Canasta. (Good job hun!) Laughter the entire time which greatly improved my mood ("I wanna dip my BALLS in it!"). Then to Kacie's house for some Preseason football in High-Definition TV. Now this is the interesting part. My best friend, Nocian, had to work until about 6pm yesterday so I wasn't expecting her to do a whole lot for me, which is fine. Everyone is broke this year unlike last year where everyone had money. That's cool..I understand. I call Nocian and tell her we are going to Kacie's house to watch some football and I want her to come over. The entire time on the phone, she's yelling at the kids and never wishes me a happy birthday. Fine. She's got her hands full with the kids...I'm gonna see her later.

So she comes over to Kacie's and I talk to her about my birthday and stuff and we watch football and the four of us joke around and play catchphrase...just hangin' out and having fun. Nocian left about 10:30pm and never once wished me a happy birthday. Didn't even acknowledge it. I wasn't expecting a present or even a card but she's supposedly my best friend. She could have given me a hug and said happy birthday. It doesn't cost anything. So that was kinda sad and upsetting but what can I do? Ever since we got back from camping she's been kinda distant and doesn't want to do anything with me except for thursdays when we have girls night. Maybe I pissed her off just as much as she pissed me off during camping. I'll probably never know 'cause neither one of us likes confrontations. Maybe that's a problem. Hmm.

Anyway, over all I had a pretty good birthday thanks to my brother, Kacie and Jim. Thanks guys.

The only thing I've never liked about my birthday is that it means that summer is ending and school is starting. Actually, some colleges started school yesterday. Sorry guys...but just think...you're that much closer to be doing done with it. Later.

Jenny Turpish Slapped Me: Quizzes - Better Relationship

Jenny Turpish Slapped Me: Quizzes - Better Relationship

well, since everyone else is doing the whole quiz thing, here's my quiz results. Enjoy!


eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 7/10
Giver: 6/10


You are a XSYG--Expressive Sentimental Physical Giver. This makes you a Sex Bomb.

You are sexy sex sex sex! The sexness! You are the sexiest, hottest and most charismatic of all types. You are a captivating speaker and a great dinner date -- relaxed, self-effacing, charming and generous. Your type probably has origins in something sad -- trying to keep the peace in a tough family situation, or an early heartbreak -- and you'll probably want to address and resolve that at some point, but in your relationships that heartache is pure gold!

You lie effortlessly -- not necessarily a bad thing. You can have problems with fidelity. You need frequent praise and validation, and in seeking it you can make decisions that aren't consistent with your general good judgment. In other words, don't cheat on your significant other just because someone is paying attention to you.

You strongly dislike conflict, and will avoid it. Like an XPYG, you give so much of yourself to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. But you internalize your feelings more and have a hard time getting over them. You don't *want* to cheat -- you just keep finding yourself in vulnerable situations. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.

Your sex life will always be hot. You are one of the rare people who can keep the fires of passion going forever -- if you find a good match. Find another XSYG and you will never need (or want) anyone else again.

Of the 23605 people who have taken this quiz, 9.1 % are this type.

Good lord I'm tired of working. I've been working non-stop basically since Friday morning and only one more day til my day off. There are some aspects of my job that I actually do like but for the most part, I'm over it. I'm working 46 hours this week which is good 'cause I need the money but almost every time I work a lot, I end up getting sick 'cause I don't get any rest. Plus, since I have to get up at 4:30am, by the time I get home I just crash. I don't do anything around the house which isn't fair to Jim and by the time he gets home at 9pm, I'm so freakin' miserably that I'm yelling at him 'cause he took my lighter. Like huge senate hearings about a lighter. Oh lord please let this week end.

There seems to be a lot of August babies (including me on the 30th!) so Happy Birthday to everyone who turns a year older this month. Oh and just in case I don't get a chance to next month, happy birthday to kacie as well. I'm sure I will but you know...I could be working this crap again that week. love ya.

I'm pretty sure there's more stuff that has happened this week but at the moment my brain is on shutdown mode. later.

Yahoo! News - Costco Tests Casket Market

Yahoo! News - Costco Tests Casket Market

I swear to god if BJ's starts doing this, I quit!

random thoughts

I love our new dog. I just wish she would stop howling when we leave her by herself. When she does it in the middle of the afternoon, it's pretty much okay since our neighbors are at work but when she does it on the weekend at 8am it's pretty worrisome. No one has complained yet but I'm still worried.

Picked up my dad and stepbrother from Amtrak station today. My dad drove a friend's car to Salt Lake City last monday and they took the train back. Since they are moving next Tuesday I didn't mind getting up at 7:30am this morning. My brother came with me and when we dropped them off my dad gave us $ to go get breakfast. We tried going to Old Country Buffet but they didn't open 'til 11 so we ended up at Denny's, which was surprisingly good. After a good conversation with my brother about relationships I went home to go back to sleep. Jim came home from school and crawled back into bed with me. Yay! No people, get your mind out of the gutter. We slept and it was great. We both had the day off. Good times! When we finally decided to wake up at 1:30pm we (I) decided we needed to do some laundry. Just as we were about to walk out the door to the laundromat, BJ's called asking if I wanted to get some extra hours tonight.

Now, I love Sharon (personel manager) but I don't love BJ'S. And I definitely wasn't about to go in on my day off when Jim had the day off too. We get a day off together once in a blue moon and I wasn't about to give it up even for the extra money. So I sadly said no I couldn't work with a smile on my face and went off to spend the day with my boy.

I know you don't want to know about the laundromat 'cause it's boring. So I won't bore you. I will however tell you about the dead bird. We had to stop at my dad's house again on the way to do laundry 'cause I had to fax my timesheets for The Health Association. We were leaving after about a 10 minute visit when Jim noticed a dead bird in the grill of my dad's new van. Now I don't know how you miss a bird flying into your car but somehow either my stepmother or father didn't know about it. After feeling a bit sad for the dead bird but laughing 'cause they just didn't know about it, I went back to their apartment and told MaryJane (stepmother). She came out, inspected it and she and I watched as Jim pryed the poor thing out of the grill. It was quite disgusting and even more so as we watched all the flies and bees fly off it as it fell to the ground. Once of the maintenance guys drove by while this was going on and luckily he had a garbage bag and took care of it for us.

About 5pm George (brother) and Chandler (niece) came over to play with Abby (dog) and Chandler proceeded to tell the dog that she didn't want to be licked. Unfortunately little girl, that's what dogs do. We showed her some pictures of her great-grandparents and of her grandma (my mom) that died when she was just 3 years old. She recognizes her in pictures but she doesn't really remember her wish is a bit bittersweet. She doesn't have to feel the pain of remembering every little quirk my mom had but at the same time she never really got to realize how great a person my mom was. "sigh" But she does love her Papa (my dad) and enjoys spending time with him. At least she has the pictures of her.

After they left Jim and I did that thing that I told you to get your mind out of the gutter about. :) Sorry. And now he is currently watching pre-season football which is so boring but whatever. I love him so I'll let him do what he wants for today. I got bit by something and I keep scratching at it and now I have two lines going up my arm...is that a good thing? I don't know but I'm pretty damn content right now. If I was a cat I would be purring. Later.

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our new baby girl, ABBY!!!

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This is our new dog Abby. She's the blond one. The brown one is my dad's dog Frasier. We think they are absolutely adorable and they are our babies.

It's the weekend

I love Saturdays. They are even better when you don't have to work them for 3 weeks in a row. Haven't being doing too much this week mainly 'cause I've had to get up for work at 5am and crash at night about 8pm. Plus we (Jim and I) have a new doggie! Her name is Abby and she's 2 years old. Supposedly she is a shepard mix but I don't see it. The shelter says she's been a stray probably most of her life and that she has definitely been a mommy at least once...but no more puppies for her. We had to get her fixed to adopt her. We got her on Thursday afternoon and so far the only thing she has destroyed are our front room blinds from jumping on them to watch us leave. She is the biggest baby and I love it. If we even leave the apartment to check the mail she starts whining. If we close the bedroom door with us inside and her outside she starts whining and barking. She is just the cutest thing ever. And the dog that my dad has that we consider the family dog "Frasier", likes her too. They were rolling all over the floor last night, sniffing each other and wagging their tales. They are so cute together. Hopefully I'm gonna use up the rest of this roll of film I have and drop it off at work tomorrow. Get some pictures of her on here by Tuesday night. That's the plan. Right now she is sitting under my computer desk sleeping. The only thing that worries me is that as far as I can tell, she hasn't peed yet. Since Thursday. It's Saturday. She drinking water and she's not peeing so I'm a little concerned. If I don't see anything happening by Monday I'll probably call the vet and find out what's up.

I really wish it wasn't so damn muggy. I don't want to do anything when it's this icky outside. Oh well, fall and winter will be here before I know it and then I'll be complaining that it's too cold. Go figure. Time to go play with Abby. Later.

the naulins, originally uploaded by toriandme.

Here's Jim's family at the reunion. That's just one part of the family. There are 2 more families from the tree that have at least 15 more people each that aren't shown.

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This is the house where Mr. Boldt let his mother live. She used to sleep walk. Notice the house is surrounded completely by water. Go figure.

Thousand Islands

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I figured I should put up some pictures from last weekends vacation. Not many good ones came out so here's what I liked. Just to let everyone know...my dad adopted a dog for Jim and I. Her name is Abby and we pick her up tomorrow about 1:30pm. Hope to have some pictures of her on here soon. Later

They said what?

So after a 8 hour shift at BJ'S, Angela and I came up with a the best classics line we heard tonight.  Enjoy!

Girl returning Poland Spring distilled water:  "I don't want distilled water.  You can't drink it.  It's for batteries.  You get sick and DIE."

Guy wanders up to the podium:  "I'm looking for a drink called Kool-Aid but it's not Kool-Aid."

Woman at the service desk: "We decided we didn't want this patio set.  It's glass - we live next to a golf course."

Woman buying a trampoline:  "Why do I have to pay NY state tax?  I'm from Florida - my card says Florida."

Old Guy at the service desk writing a check
Girl:  "Oh, you press so hard."
Guy:  "I always do."

Guy calling on the phone:  "Did anyone find a birth certificate?"

This is the crap we put up with everyday at work.  Be kind to us or we might have to either 1)laugh out loud at you or 2) kill you.  Later.

god is mean sometimes

First of all, the next time I go on vacation with kids for a week, they damn well better be mine.  I've decided that although I love my best friend and her kids, they are all nuts.  Between the rain and the kids yelling at each other and Nocian yelling at the kids and her and jackass yelling at each other, I thought I might commit suicide by jumping off the cliff next to us into the shallow stream.  Oh dear god, the insanity.  Instead I decided to take the slow route to suicide by letting all the freakin' bugs eat me slowly to death. 
 
Now, the entire week wasn't horrible.  Monday wasn't that bad although right now I couldn't tell you what the hell we did.  I know we spent at least a good 2-21/2 hours in the hornell plaza shopping at Wegmans and Walmart.  Other than that I couldn't tell you.  I guess the thought of leaving early and/or suicide came later. 
 
Oh Sunday (the day we got there) was classic.  Jen has two boys who both have different daddies (if you can call them that).  Anyway, we got to Tops on Sunday who do run in to other than the 8 year olds dad and his girlfriend.  They decided to go to Stony brook for the day.  Now Nocian hates him.  Wants nothing to do with him.  So why she invited him up to the campsite for awhile before we had even unpacked the cars is beyond me.  Maybe she was just trying to be civil for her son's sake.  But all I know is that the entire time they were there, she didn't say more than two words to him. She couldn't wait for them to leave.  But whatever, I was on vacation and I was trying to enjoy it. 
 
Tuesday was actually the best day we had.  Although I didn't bring enough blankets and had to go buy one at Wal-mart and I woke up with my neck hurting from sleeping the wrong way I was still in a pretty good mood.  We went down to the waterfalls and did a little swimming.  Although none of us adults had actually planned to, we all ended up because we all fell at least once on that damn moss.  I have the damn bruise to prove it. The water was cold but clear and it was warm and sunny so we all had fun.  It wasn't until Tuesday that I started missing Jim.  Not a big ache or anything but a "I wonder what Jim's doing right now?  I wonder if he's missing me yet?"  After some showers to rinse off all the dirt from the stream, we ate some grilled chicken sandwiches and did a little drinking in front of the fire that I made.  I was so proud of myself.  Now I know most people are like big deal, you have a match and a lighter.  Not that big of a deal to make a fire.  But dammit, that shit was hard.  To build a big enough fire to actually watch the moths do kamikaze's into the fire is not easy.  So shut it. 
 
Wednesday.  The beginning of the end.  Woke up to the ground shaking from the thunder.  Jumped out of my tent to run to the bathrooms then ran back to the campsite and by then I was totally soaked.  Jen and the boys were awake so I grabbed dry clothes out of my tent and got into hers.  They had a huge tent.  Sleeps 9 people; they only had 3 1/2 in it.  I say 3 1/2 'cause Joey (the 4 year old) only comes up to about my mid-thigh.  Anyway, after changing into some dry clothes, Hector (8 year old) and I played canasta for about 3 hours in which he got mad at the end of every hand 'cause I'd go out on him.  He plays a lot like Jim does if that gives you any idea how badly he played.  Now I don't know if it was the rain or PMS or what but I seriously wanted to just kill all 4 of them by Wednesday afternoon.  Nocian and her boyfriend argue about everything.  I mean everything.  About where shoes should go, who changes Joey, who's going to cook.  I sure they argue about who's gonna be on top for sex but I don't need to get that visual.  We ended up doing laundry because there wasn't anything else to do because of the rain.  I swear to God, if the boys had been mine I would have beat there asses by Wednesday.  They don't listen, they talk back and they don't care.  Maybe it's just cause they are boys.  I don't remember Chandler ever doing this crap.  Somehow, someway, when I have kids I'm gonna make sure they are girls.  I've had enough of boys.    During the rain and the yelling, somehow I managed to get a hold of Kacie to have her come down on Friday since it wasn't scheduled to rain and I had to call Jim about 4 different times before I was able to hear his beautiful voice.  We only got to talk for about 5 minutes but it was enough to boost my spirits....for about 2 hours.  Wednesday was just one of those days where we just sat under the tarp and drank.  There wasn't that much more to do. 
 
Thursday I decided I needed a break from everyone and drove back to Rochester in the rain so that I could 1.) see my boyfriend who I missed horrible and 2.) try and get my paycheck.  Got to my house and trying to make as little noise as possible snuck into the bedroom where my wonderful boyfriend was sound asleep.  I jumped on top of him and started kissing him awake.  I love that man.  Sigh.  After convincing him he didn't need to do laundry today, we layed in the bed for a bit just enjoying each other.  Get your mind out of the gutter kids.  Not that kind of enjoying.  Called in a prescription and called BJ's only to find out that I wouldn't be able to pick up my paycheck until Friday even though I was on vacation and wouldn't be back until Monday.  Scumbags.  If I ever find out who called the 800 # to complain about paychecks I will kill them.    About 4 hours after I left the campsite, I returned to a.) find it still raining b.) everyone still fighting and not relaxing at all the way you're supposed to when you're on vacation and c.) find Hector's dad putting up a tent on the campsite next to us.  They came back and decided to stay for the whole weekend.  Now maybe some of you are quick and see the problem with this setup.  For those of you who don't let me explain.  Hector's dad was supposed to pick him up on Thursday and take him home back to Rochester.  Away.  Gone.  I was looking forward to one less voice being loud.  But alas, that didn't happen.  So now, Jen is pissed 'cause she doesn't want to deal with the father; I'm pissed cause now there's more people to add to the yelling and arguing.  At this point, I'm praying that we just decide to go home.  I'm sick of my air mattress, I'm sick of having to lock the tent everytime I leave it 'cause there are certain people that can't be trusted, I'm sick of getting bug bites, I'm sick of everyone and everything.    But that didn't happen either.  Instead we just decided to put up a tarp to block our campsite off from theirs.  I think it was Thursday night that I decided that I was probably gonna go home on Saturday for no reason other than that it would be one less night on that damn air mattress that is about 5 years old and keeps deflating and I keep waking up with a stiff neck.  That and the fact that I missed my boyfriend so much I could cry.  Drank  a Smirnoff Twisted in front of the fire that night and went to bed thoroughly pissed.
 
Friday.  I think we all hated each other by Friday.  I was so ready to leave those people I left about 40 minutes after I got up.  Didn't even take a shower.  I told them I had to get my paycheck which I did have to get but the real reason was just to have some peace.  Good god people.  I don't remember fighting with my own family as much as they were all fighting.  And let me tell you, my family had some shitty vacations but I don't think any were this bad.  At one point I think I was even wising I was back at good ole Bj's being harassed by the members.  It passed quickly but it was there none the less. I got back from Rochester about mid-afternoon just wishing it would hurry up and end.  By the time it was almost dusk, I had already told Jen I was leaving Saturday night instead of Sunday morning.  I didn't tell her that she and her offspring were driving me nuts and that I didn't want to see them again for like  3 weeks but whatever.  I think at that point the vacation wasn't salvagable.  It was still raining off and on and it was cold.  I just didn't care anymore.
 
Saturday started with almost no clouds in the sky.  What the fuck!  It was sunny, warm and my tent showed signs of trying to dry.  Yeah after I had already decided that I was gonna go home Sat.  God is mean sometimes.  I basically didn't care anymore though.  I woke up about 9:30am and waited about an hour and a half for the showers to open up.  My one question to the caretakers of Stonybrook park.  Why would you have 5 bathroom stalls and only 2 shower stalls for an area of about 40 campsites with at least 2 people at each campsite?  Where's the logic people? Seriously.  Anyway, I got dressed and started packing.  My shit was packed in under an hour, tent and all.  I waited for Nocian and them to finish packing cause they decided to leave Sat. as well.  It was also Joey's birthday on Sat. which officially made him 4 years old.  He didn't really understand but whatever.  I was going home to my nice bed and my wonderful boyfriend. 
 
So that's it.  My week sucked and tomorrow I get to go back to work.  But there is hope.  On Friday Jim and I leave for the Thousand Islands for his family reunion.  Never been there.  Should be fun.  But then I went camping and I had never been and look how that turned out.  Later people.

Life in Slow Motion

Life in Slow Motion

yeah so i'm back from camping and I'd like to think I had a grand old time but um, no, that didn't happen. I'll do some more posting about it tomorrow. Allee, you will have something to read that's longer than a paragraph.

I'm on va-ca-tion!

I love that title. Good title. I wish I had more of those titles. Anyways, tomorrow I'm off to Stonybrook outside Dansville to do a little (a lot) camping. I'm gonna be gone for a week and I can't wait to get away from chaos. I want to be pleasantly numb...no thinking about anything other than "Jen, we need more alcohol." I'm already packed people and I'm not even leaving for another 15 hours. It's supposed to rain all week starting tomorrow night but if God would be oh so kind as to give me two back to back days of sun and 80 degree weather I will never swear again in this blog. I would let Jim win every fight and I would do dishes every day for a month with no hesitation. Just two back to back days of sunshine. To wish is to dream. I'm going to bed 'cause I'm exhausted after work and I wanna get up early tomorrow. Later people...C-YA IN 8 DAYS!

Parental advisory warning.....explicit dialogue....leave me the F**k alone!

I'm absolutely miserable. I hate everyone and I'm so sad I could cry all day. Everyone just irritates the hell out of me and I don't know why. People that I usually get along with I can't stand today. I don't know if it's PMS or my depression or what but I really hate everyone. And the ones I don't hate I'm just really sad around. Nothing makes me happy. I wish I had a freakin' gun so that I could either shoot everyone or myself. Good thoughts people. Good thoughts. Fucking assholes at work piss me off. I can't deal with it anymore. It's time to get a real job. I'm not gonna be part of the BJ's family where people who have worked there for 40 years get together for vacations. Screw that. I'll go nuts if I'm there that long. Good times people. Good freakin' times. Rhino clit snatch juice drinking cum guzzling whore.

6 days

I can't wait until Sunday. I will be on vacation finally! I'm going camping at Stoneybrook with Nocian and the boys and I can't freaking wait. No work, no boyfriend, no phone...just nature. No having to deal with dickhead people from work. No having to deal with my family and "the move" for a whole week. Oh my god I wish it was Sunday today! I've already got all my stuff for camping, I just want to go and enjoy the sun! But there's still 6 days left which means that I have to work 5 out of those 6 days and today is one of them. Which means instead of sitting here typing this, I should be getting dressed. Later people.

Good Day!

This has been a very good day off. First I had to babysat my stepbrother for 3 hours and I was out by 2:30pm. Then I headed over to my best friend's house and we watched Paycheck (that was really good actually), then off to Wally World to buy a few H&B stuff and put some $ down on my layaway for camping in June. Then a nice lunch at Applebee's with Nocian and Joey. We stuffed ourselves, spent too much but we had fun. Back to my house to play a little Canasta and then I took them home. Once I got home, Jim had something in mind as soon as I walked in the door at 8:30pm. A shower and an 1 1/2 hours later and I have a smile on my face for the first time in a long time. Thank you my friends for giving me a smiling stress free day all day long. I'm off to bed to do some reading and some cuddling. Later :)

What is ....I mean, where did....oh fuck it!

I have nothing good to say about anything today because it's 9:30am and I'm wide awake after having to wake up at 5am for the past week. I've forgotten many things this week such as my name, how to do my job, my paycheck, and that I pay $65 a month to go workout and haven't done that in over 2 weeks. My life is really sad people. Wanna know when my next day off is? I don't know 'cause I'm working every freakin' day next week. My last day off was father's day. It feels like that was weeks ago but maybe it was only a week ago. Who knows? I'm gonna finish eating breakfast and then go to RAC...if I can remember how to get there.

I think I've just done the dumbest thing in the world. Today my ex-boyfriend's mother came in to BJ's to shop and for some reason, I stopped her and told her that I needed closure with Joe and if I could possibly get his phone number. She asked for mine instead and me being stupid, I did. And now I am freakin' out 'cause I probably should have talked to Jim first about it and what the hell is he gonna do if this guy calls and he answers the phone? SHIT!

So here's the deal about Joe: Joe and I dated for 1 1/2 years back in 99-00. He was the younger man and I was just happy he wasn't gay. Anyway, we had a turbulent year and a half in which I went back to school and he joined the Army. After bootcamp he decided he didn't want to be in the Army so he tried just saying he wanted to kill himself and that landed him in R wing of Strong. Anyway, he ended up having to go back and they told him that they would probably discharge him because of everything. So we thought great in a week he would be back and everything would be back to normal. Well, that didn't happen. The day he left to go to Georgia he said I love you and I'll see you in a week. Well, a week turned into 2 weeks which turned into months which turned into years. His mother broke up with me for him over the phone about 2 months after he left. I haven't seen or heard from him since that day in February back in '00.

Now you are probably all wondering why the hell I would even want to talk to this jerk when I have the greatest boyfriend on earth and I wouldn't trade for anyone in the world. Because I have no closure with him. I don't want anything to do with him. I don't love him but part of my past hasn't been closed all the way and I feel like I need to do this not only for myself but for Jim as well. I hate having dreams about Joe and I'm screaming "Why didn't you ever call me? Why didn't you ever write?" and before as he starts to talk I wake up. I don't want to keep looking in the past when I should be looking towards the future with Jim.

I need help people. Now that I've done this I regret it. I feel like I've just compromised my relationship with Jim just to find out what happened to a past relationship that would have burned out in the end anyway. What do I do boys and girls? Someone tell me!

I miss cable

So here I am babysitting at my dad's house. The good news is that Ivan has been asleep since I got here at 6pm because he had a long day today, so he will sleep all night. The bad news is that I'm bored out of my mind. Good thing there's cable! There's just something about surfing through 100's of channels and still not finding anything to watch. It's amazing. So I've landed on VH-1 and holy shit "I love the 80's!" was on. I'm stuck on VH-1 for the rest of the night. Forget MTV, HBO, all that shit...I need to watch to try to remember why on earth we wore our hair that big and why I still love The Breakfast Club, St. Elmo's Fire, Sixteen Candles, NKOTB and all that other shit. I'm such a moron. But I love it. They might have to pry me off the couch tonight when they get home. Later.

-So this has been an interesting week. My dad and extended family went to Chicago and Wisconsin for a week so Jim and I got the privelege of taking care of Frasier, the family dog. I love that dog. He's about 4 years old but he still acts like a puppy. I love this dog...I wish my dad wasn't taking him when they moved in Chicago.

-There is a new group of us that go out for drinks after work whenever the mood strikes 'cause we hate our job. Actually we don't really hate our job we hate certain people that come in to our club and give us a hard time. Usually it just takes one person to ruin your day and sometimes it's within 5 minutes of walking in the door. So today I look forward to seeing PornStar, Breeder, Nipple Boy, and Baby. Good times people. Good times.

-A certain friend of mine had a dream that there were Orgy's going on in my house. "Welcome to Kim's Loveshack!"

-word of the week: Random
ex: "It's just random randomness happening." - Glaser

-This thursday is time for another evaluation at the RAC. I don't even want to go. Pretty sure I've gained weight. Maybe I should get back into my program. *sigh*

-This should be a really good week at work especially since I'm opening almost every damn day. At least I'll be able to work my other job and see my boyfriend. Thanks Rae!

I'm outta here. Gotta get ready for work. Later

Pissed off

Here's an over heard story today by me from a manager to an unknown person on the phone: "Instead of kicking him out of the priesthood, they are just sending him to a different church to molest people there." I hate BJ'S. I have to deal with stupid people and certain stupid managers all day long and now I find out that one of our good managers just got transferred to Webster and we're going to be getting a shitty manager that no one likes. Everyone sucks. There are people who take advantage of family relations and abusing priveleges (you know who you are) and then there are certain people who feel they have to rule everything even when it's not their job. I know how to do my job. Stay the hell out of my business. It felt like a damn Saturday and it's only Friday. I still have Saturday and Sunday to go in shithole. All the good people are leaving and all the bad people are staying and I'm pissed off. Except for Tina F., Rae and Angela I think I would seriously walk off.

My stepmother is driving me crazy as well. I don't want to hear anymore about them moving and the kids in summer school and who needs counseling and blah blah blah blah blah. I don't care. I don't want to know about new car and what my father says about this and what my brother should and shouldn't do. I don't care. I'm tired of hearing her talk down about my brother. He's my brother you stupid b**ch. Only I'm allowed to harass him. And do you really think you should be telling me every single detail about moving? Don't you think maybe my father should be telling me some of this since you know...he's MY FATHER! Thank God they are gonna be gone for a whole week.

*sigh* And to think I actually took my medicine today. What a waste.

Blah

It's Sunday, it's beautiful outside and I have to work until 9:30 tonight. What's up with that? Well, at least I worked out today. I've kinda fallen off going to work out every other day so I'm trying to get back into the swing of things. I think it was all that frickin' rain we had. Made me not want to do anything but sleep. But the sun is back and it's time to get out of bed and start moving.

So I have off the next couple of days which is good except for the fact that it's supposed to rain again! How do the higher powers that be expect us to enjoy Memorial Day and have cookouts and such if it's thundering and lightning outside? Could someone explain why everytime I have a day off it rains? Guess I'll watch a Lord of the Rings marathon on Tuesday...maybe my brother will come over and watch. HINT!

Everything is actually going good over here on Pearl St. My best fried graduated on 5/21! I'm so proud of her. Love ya Nocian. I get to go on vacation in less than 6 weeks! My best friend, her two sons, her boyfriend and I are going up to stonybrook and doing some camping for a week. I can't wait to get away from work and certain family relatives. It's gonna fly by way too fast I just know it. My luck it'll probably rain. Oh well, I'm off to work. Later.

Howdy people. Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile but I've been busy. So to update everyone on what I've lost so far...2lbs and 16 1/2 inches....go me! I still have a long way to go though. And I have a new program that will challenge me even more and I still love that hip hop class at the RAC. Know if I could only stop smoking cigarettes.

So yesterday I went with Nocian to Bryant & Stratton for graduation stuff. It was boring but she got her cap and gown and she's getting excited. We planned her party for Thursday people! Come on over but remember it's B.Y.O.B.! :) Anyway, while we were there I wandered around and found a bulletin board with Dean's List on there and found out my brother was on there! He never told me! So I talked to him today and found out he's been on there for the past 3 semesters with a 3.7 or better. Go George! I'm proud of him. So listen up all you graphic design businesses.

So yesterday Kacie, Jen and I walked up from Park Ave up to MEX on Alexander St. It was so freakin' hot but it was good. I've decided when it's this hot outside, I can't drink alcohol. It just makes me hotter and then I don't finish the drink which is a waste of money. I can't believe it's already 84 outside and it's not even noon yet.

On Mother's Day I had an anxiety attack because I was at BJ'S and my manager yelled at me. I didn't have it because he yelled at me...I had it cause it was mother's day and I was trying so hard to forget that it was mother's day and he just kinda pushed me off the edge. That nice little attack lasted for just about 30 minutes. But after I went back to work. Thanks Allee for reminding me that "It's just BJ'S. It's not worth it."

Okay so I'm off to do a bunch of stuff I would rather not do. Later.

Hey everyone it's Wednesday. Thank goodness it's payday tomorrow 'cause I am seriously BROKE. Which is why I went into BJ's today for 4 hours. Every little bit helps. Work was normal as usual...people yelling at other people, members making cashiers cry, you know, the norm. Anyway, Jim started school on Monday to be certified as a facilities technician. I'm very proud of him that he didn't give up trying to get financial aid after all the bs they put him through. In 16 weeks, he'll be certified and can get a real job and away from TOPS. Now if only I could do the same with BJ's.

Anyway, found out that my dad and stepmother plan on moving to Chicago mid-August. They have issues with her ex which are just way to complicated to get into here. Once they move, the only blood relatives I'll have in Rochester will be my brother and my niece. :( *sigh*

Tonight I'm going to RAC for the hip hop class. It's so much fun it doesn't even feel like exercise. Last week I laughed the entire time. Can't wait for tonight. Tomorrow I go in for my evaluation for RAC. They are gonna reweigh and remeasure to see how I've done in the past six weeks. I don't know why I'm nervous. Everyone keeps saying that they can tell I'm losing weight but I still don't see it. Oh well.

I had a nice little treat yesterday from Kacie. She bought me a frog sponge holder for the kitchen but I've decided it's too nice to put in the kitchen so it's with my collection of frogs. I love frogs! Thanks Kacie.

Sunday is Mother's Day so all you mothers out there have a good day while I work 2 jobs that day. Put your feet up, have some drinks, and make your kids do everything for you. And for those of us who have lost our mothers, take a moment to think about her and remember all the good times, not the bad. Let it put a smile on your face.

Later.

Howdy

Hey everyone. How's everyone doing? At this moment I'm doing good but that could change in fifteen seconds 'cause I'm PMS'ing. Not that you needed to know that but it does explain alot about the past few days. Anyone that works with me has all ready seen or heard all about it. (Sorry Dan. Those muffins looked so good though. )

Anyway right now I'm listening to Joss Stone's new album. Oh my goodness people! This album is amazing. Go out and buy it. It reminds me of Norah Jones with a little touch of funk. I love the song "Fell in love with a boy". Don't know why but it makes me wanna sing even when I'm pissed off at my boyfriend. That's it I'm gonna try out for American Idol with this song. I'm gonna be like William Hung and just sing from my heart. Who needs talent?

So yesterday I got my invite to my ten year high school reunion. They want $104 for 2 pairs of tickets to a buffet dinner. Um, hello. I don't remember spending that much on graduation cap and gown. I haven't seen these people in 10 years and they want me to spend that kind of money?!? *sigh * Where's my checkbook?

Good things this week:

*got a raise at work
*good times with kacie and Trivial Pursuit DVD edition

Bad things this week:

*our frig/freezer is trying not to die but probably will anyway
*we have an ant problem suddenly
*no $ already
*out of smokes
*Jim and I have been fighting


I love Kacie but it's pretty damn sad when Trivial Pursuit becomes the highlight of my week. I'm a sad mofo.

I'm off to play some Canasta while I wait for Jim to come home so we can watch the movie "Pi". Or as Kacie says "3.14". Later

According to the weatherbug on my PC, it's 54 degrees right now and it's suppossed to get up to 70 with thunderstorms. Great. It's nice its been warm out the past few days but its been gray. The big guy up there is teasing and he needs to stop. Oh well, nothing exciting has happened in the past few days. Probably because I slept away almost the entire day on saturday. Oh well. I'm off to work. Later people.

Decompressing

It has been a freakin' long ass weekend. Jim and I just got back from spending five days at my dad's babysitting Ivan, my 5 year old stepbrother. Now Ivan is pretty much a normal 5 year old until you tell him to put on his shoes or pick up his toys and then he turns into the DEVIL'S SPAWN.

Now you have to have some patience with him 'cause honestly he's five. What can I do? Smack him around? He's not my kid. So when I'm trying to get him to do something I have to reset to bribery.

"Ivan, if you put on your shoes and jacket, I'll let you play on the computer."

"Ivan, if you pick up your toys, I'll give you some chocolate."

"Ivan, if you put down the knife, I'll try not to beat your ass." - Just kidding!

He really wasn't that bad though. I think I took him to the park just about everyday it wasn't raining. I let him run around with the other kids to burn off some of his energy. That boy loves the spiral slide. He stays on that thing the entire time. He slides down and then climbs back up.

Kacie and I took him to Chuck E. Cheese's on Saturday ( I think...the days are blurred together.) It was kinda nice to be able to let him run around and know that he's not gonna get lost. I must admit the kid grew on me. I can't wait to have kids. Jim on the other hand will probably never want kids after this weekend. For the most part, I could control Ivan and use the force on him to bend him to my will. Jim on the other hand....let me put it this way. On Easter I was off and was with him all day. He played in his room most of the day and he came out for a bit and we colored...everything was cool...Jim came home from work so I went to do laundry downstairs. I get outside to smoke a cigarette and I can hear them screaming at each other. Yes...my bf was arguing with a 5 year old.

In under 5 minutes, tempers exploded and ear drums were burst. As soon as I walked back in the house, everything was fine again. I don't get it.

On top of babysitting, I did work...at 6am. Which meant that as soon as Ivan was in bed at 9pm I went to bed so I could get up at 5am. And then also worked out after work and then had to stay up until after 9pm each night unless Jim was off from work.

I feel like I'm babbling but you know what....it's my blog and I can so deal with it.

Wanna hear about some weird ass dreams I've had the past two nights?

Monday night I had a dream that I was at work at BJ's. But it was like an open market where there was no roof or walls and everyone worked outside. Anyway, I was working at my desk and I had brought Ivan with me to work when all of a sudden it starts to snow. Actually a blizzard ensues. It's freezing and Ivan is sitting on my lap trying to keep warm. I realize that's he's gonna get hypothermia and that I have to save him and get him inside where it's warm. So I'm running around trying to find a manager so I can get permission to leave work and go home. Right when Robert says I can go home I wake up and realize that my heart is pounding hard. It doesn't sound all that scary but it was really intense.

My dream last night was weirder. It was me, my dad, brother, sister in law and niece. We were inside our house when all of a sudden an explosion happened behind our house and the house shifted on it's foundation; ready to collapse. We all got outside the house when we realized that we left the cats inside. So I decide to go back in the house to find my cats. But it was kinda like a fun house on the inside 'cause if you went to one side of the house, it would rock like it was gonna fall but if you ran back to the other side, it would stop. It was weird. After searching for my cats, I found them and right as I stepped out of the house, it collapsed and I woke up.

Does anyone out there have any idea what these mean? The only thing I can think of is that I'm trying to protect or rescue something that means a lot to me. Anyone have any other ideas? Let me know.

Well, jeez, this is pretty long. It's 10pm and I have to get up at 5am. Later people.

I hate my car

Hi people. It's my day off, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping and there's snow on the ground in April. WHAT? When is it gonna end? Bring on the shorts, tank tops and flip flops! At least if winter is gonna go out with a bang at least make it worthwhile....an ice storm where I don't have to go to work for a week and get paid would be fine with me. At least then we would know winter was over 'cause it always ends with an ice storm. I'm sick of not being able to get into my car after work because the door is FROZEN SOLID. Of not being able to wash my car this day because the next day it's gonna drop about 40 degrees and then I won't BE ABLE TO GET IN MY CAR. And even if I can get in my car, the stupid door won't close. IT BOUNCES BACK OPEN! It never does this in the summer. It never did it in Virginia, only in good old Rochester. Now I'm bitter because I have to go do laundry and I know my door is gonna give me problems. Later

Good Weekend

Hello everyone...last night a friend and I went to go see "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind". Wow that movie was good. Extremely original and entertaining. I want this movie when it comes out on video...I want to go see it again and I would pay the $8 for another ticket. Made me cry it did. I won't get into details about it 'cause I'm sure there are some of you who want to see it but let me just tell you this. It's a love story but it's not a chick flick. Guys will dig it and girls will love it.

Since when did Tinseltown start id'ing people for R movies? Has anyone ever been id'd for movies? Well I got Id'd last night and I'm 27 years old. Go figure. It was kinda nice since I don't get carded for smokes or alcohol anymore but it was still weird. And since when did concession people walk around in the theatre before the movie caring soda and candy? Have I been that much of a hermit? I thought I was at a damn baseball game. Kinda weird. But the worst is that even though they are selling sodas to people who are already sitting down, they don't make sure that the soda isn't flat. HELLO! Stupid people. But it was still a good movie! Loved it!

Today I went to do pilates for the first time with Nocian. Holy shit it kicked our asses! I am so out of shape! There were some exercises that Jen could do that I couldn't and then there were some that I could do that she couldn't...then there were some that we just sat there and looked at each other and said "Yeah, right." It felt good though and I'm not in too much pain twelve hours later. I'm looking forward to working out tomorrow before work at 3:30pm (hint, hint Ms. Michaels). Well, I'm off to put some laundry away, cook some dinner and go to bed. Later.

Where do I start?

First of all, I'm really freakin' tired so I don't wanna hear anyone's crap today until after I've had at least another 2 hours of sleep and at least one 7-11 coffee. Last night was the third night in a row where I didn't sleep all the way through. I keep tossing and turning and I'm not comfortable. And once I do get back to sleep, I have to usually wake up about 3 hours later anyway which means I've been cranky for 3 days as well. How does my boyfriend live with me?

Today, is our 2 1/2 year anniversary. Is it stupid to wanna celebrate a half anniversary? He seems to think it is but I figure why not? I could understand if we were married and doing it but we're not. Anyway, he's going over to his friend's house and I'm probably gonna hang out with my girls. Now I'm getting bitter. I can't believe he's gonna pick wrestling over spending some time with me. Am I really that horrible of a person? Guess it's gonna be a drinking night tonight.

I am really psyched though because I joined the RAC for women in pittsford. I'm starting to work out 'cause dammit I have a 10 yr high school reunion in November and my boyfriend would rather watch wrestling on tv then wrestle with me in the bedroom. And I'm tired of who I see when I look in the mirror. As I told one of my managers at BJ's yesterday "There's a thin gene in here somewhere...I just have to find it" And the best part is that Nocian and Kacie joined too so now I have workout buddies which is even better! We can support and motivate each other and drag each other's lazy asses out of bed. So I'm off to workout. Hope everyone has a good day.

new story on revelations

hi everyone. I just updated "Revelations". It's a long one (6 chapters) just to warn you. I expect comments people. I know where you all work and live and I will come after you if I don't start getting some comments. Got it? Okay...off to bed.

When is it gonna be spring?

I mean seriously. When? It can stop snowing anytime now. I would like to go and clean my car for starters. I would like to have that first cookout that everyone looks forward to. I would like to not have to sleep with two blankets and the heater on. I would like to be able to wear shorts 'cause let me tell you....my legs are pasty white. That is not my natural color people! I need color! Oh well, off to work. Maybe spring will come while I'm there. Later.

"Daddy you're wack." - Chandler

Who wants to know what I did on Monday? Come on, who wants to know? Okay I'll tell you. Monday was pretty slow up until about 4pm when I had to pick up my brother from Bryant and Stratton. He was late of course but as soon as he got in the car I rubbed his head 'cause his hair is cut really short and he hates when I do that. He had his portfolio with him which almost took up the back seat. He's a graphic design major. Anyway, a quick stop at the post office and we were off to pick up Chandler. She got in the car and started yelling because I never pick her up on Mondays and she was soooo excited. Once she found out I was gonna hang out with her and her father all night she gave me a huge hug in the car and we were off. All three of us were hungry so off to China Buffet we were. While we were in the car I told Chandler all about the mean things her father used to do to me when we were younger and she started hitting her father! LOL. I shouldn't laugh but it was funny. Every time he tried to defend herself she hit him and said "You have to be nice to Aunt Kim." "I told you to be nice to Aunt Kim!"

We were listening to the radio and my brother said that whoever was singing was wack. We all know what that means. But Chandler doesn't. She thought it meant wacky. So she kept telling her father he was wack. "Daddy you're wack." We made it to China Buffet and the girl is definitely a Bunzol. Her first time up she got two plates of food. One plate mac and cheese and pizza. The other egg rolls and sweet and sour chicken. The next trip up she got shrimp. I mean, a lot of shrimp. And she ate every single one.

Next up was George's new apartment. Holy cow people. Something is up with Greg, his roommate. We walk in and the first thing I notice is that the carpet is spotless. I mean you can see the lines where it was vacuumed. "George, who vacuums?" "Greg does." Okay. Up the stairs to the bedrooms and on the wall are 4 plates. You know - the kind that old woman put on their walls. "Are those Greg's?" "Yup." Just so everyone knows, Chandler doesn't like Greg a whole lot but then again she doesn't like boys except for Papa and Daddy. She doesn't even like Uncle Jim and we've been dating for 2 1/2 years! Okay so anyway, we go in the bathroom and it's all dolphins. I mean dolphin carpet, dolphin towels, dolphin shower curtain and dolphin shower curtain holders. What guy matches stuff that well? And it smelled girly. Now I have no problem with gay people. I do worry though when they are in denial and can't admit it. That boy could be on queer eye.

So we watched some old American Music Award Shows from like 1995 and we played the infamous Fiona Apple Speech which is hysterical. I love it...she's so stupid! Here's the speech:

Man, ah man. I didn't prepare a speech and I'm sorry...but I'm glad that I didn't because I'm not gonna do this like everybody else does it. Um..'Cause everybody that I should be thanking I'm really sorry but I have to use this time. See Maya Angelou said that we as human beings at our best can only create op-opportunities and I'm gonna use this opportunity the way that I wanna use it. So what I wanna say is, um, everybody out there that is watching; everybody that's watching this world...this world is bullshit and you shouldn't model you're life - wait a second - you shouldn't model your life about what you think that we think is cool and what we're wearing and what we're saying and everything. Go with yourself....go with yourself. And there's just a few people that I want to say something to. I want to say Momma, I love you. I'm so glad that we're becoming friends. Amber I love you. You're my sister. You're my best friend. Andrew Slater no one else could have produced this album and no one else did....Um...And it's just stupid that I'm in this world. But you're all very cool to me so thank you very much. And I'm sorry for all the people that I didn't thank but man, it's good. Bye.

Man I love that. It makes my brother and I roll with laughter. Anyway about 9pm it was time to take Chandler home. Literally one minute after getting in the car she was asleep. It was a good day. :)

It's Monday

So to fully understand the extent of my brother and I still picking on each other when we get together you're just gonna have to go read "Sibling Squabbles". You know how to get there...Just click it, read it, comment, love it. Later.

Hello people. I actually should be getting in the car to go to work but I'm procrastinating. The only thing I have to look forward to this week is Monday. It's my day off and I'm going to go see my brother who I haven't seen in probably a month and a half and my niece who I haven't seen in two weeks. Anyway, we're gonna go to his new apartment and hang out and probably pick on each other like we used to when we lived together. I can't wait. Why am I a glutton for punishment? Oh well...I'll have fun, he'll have fun and Chandler will be on my side just 'cause I'm a girl. You go baby girl! Okay....now I have to go to work...Bye!

I have absolutely no enthusiasm for work today. It's too damn cold outside and I don't want to wait for the car to heat up just so I can go to work and have to deal with stupid members. I would much rather sit at home in front of the computer and work on my stories. I so need to get published so that I can have money. So I can quit my job and actually do a job that I want to do. When is it gonna happen? WHEN? grr. Working 2 jobs still isn't helping to make ends meet. Not when I gotta borrow $20 from my wonderful boyfriend just to put gas in the car. Blah....I can't wait for camping in July. A week away from my jobs! Oh well, off to work I guess.

I have only one thing to say...

I've only been awake for 30 minutes and I already hate everything.

Too Early (Yawn)

Some of you who know me well are probably asking yourself "What in the HECK is she doing up this early on her day off?" Well, let me tell you. First, the alarm went off at 6:29am so that Jim could get to work by 8am. We have Frasier (the dog) over last night and he decided he wanted to jump into Jim's spot of the bed. Then (maybe it's just me) Jim seems to have this habit that everytime he enters the room, he leaves the door open. So I can hear him going to the bathroom, making coffee, opening the closet...breathing. So I close the door, he opens it again. I close the door, he opens it again. It's like a seesaw. By this time, I'm awake and my mind is racing. About things I should do today, how I'm gonna make my car payment this week, stressing about having to go see 'Master and Commander' tonight because I lost last night playing the game "Acquire". On a side note, what the hell is the point of taking anti-anxiety medicine if I build up intolerances to it? Can someone please tell me? Jeez.

So that is why I am awake. After Jim left I got up, feed the dog, made myself some hot chocolate (yum) and started checking all of my usual websites I hit when I first wake up. And people, do I have to pull a Ryan on your butts? Leave comments! Do you think I'm doing this for myself? Don't answer that. I need feedback. I'm needy! All of my friends know that and so do most of the people I work with. So comment.

My one goal of the day is to call up The Health Association because they are messing with my hours and didn't even tell me! My stepmother had to tell me. What kind of BS is that? That coordinator is in for a RUDE awakening. I live paycheck to paycheck. You can't just not pay me because you screwed up the paper work...stupid b%*@h. REVENGE WILL BE MINE!

Okay well know that I've done some venting for the day, I'm gonna go clean the house a bit. Later

Hi everyone! Just to update...I've started posting some of my stories on here..Go to "My stories and poems" and click on 'read me'. It'll take you there. I'll try to get some more stuff on there soon. Later.

Girl's Night

So last night was girl's night. It had originally started because my boyfriend went over to hang out with my best friend's boyfriend while I was at work and she had nothing to do. Well, after a few schedule changes at work, we created girl's night while they did their thing. I think we have way more fun 'cause all they do is watch wrestling, CSI, Survivor, and drink. They sit on the couch and zone out. Boring. It's just the two of them and a 3 year old. And usually, one of them falls asleep but I'm not saying who. Anyway, last night, I had Jen, Kacie and Tobey over. (Yeah, Tobey's a guy but we needed him to play cards. And he lives right upstairs.) Kacie brought over Southern Comfort, Grenadier, sour mix and T.G.I.Fridays cause we were starving. Jen brought over a bottle of Spumante and ice cream so we could make drinks, I had the Pepsi and the Aldi's cheesy puffs and Tobey had no cigarette's so he bummed all night. After looking up some mixed drinks on the internet, we got ready to play some Canasta. Yeah, we know it's an old people's game but we're addicted. Leave us alone!

Too bad Tobey had no idea to play. Every time Jen had to tell him to pick up or discard she drank from the Spumante bottle. Jen was drunk in 10 minutes. It was great. It's not often I see my best friend drunk so it was definitely the highlight. After a miserable first game where Kacie and I kicked their asses, Jen wanted to switch partners. Poor Tobey, no one wanted to be his partner. But I became his partner and we got our asses kicked. But it didn't matter 'cause Jen was drunk, I had a couple in me, and there was non-stop laughter. I love being with friends who can make you laugh instead of people who are just constantly negative. Who needs that? Life is negative enough. So thank you Jen, Kacie and Tobey. You make Thursday nights worth looking forward to. Oh, and Kacie, I gotta find a new mouse pad! EWW!

But alas, next Thursday will be just Jen, my niece and I. So no drinking, but still definitely lots of laughter. Kacie, have a good time in Florida...we're gonna miss you while you are gone!

Later everyone!

P.S.
*That perfect girlfriend thing on the bottom? That is soooo me..and yes I'm rare! Not the cheater!

Blog stuff

I'm currently in the process of playing around with some of the sidebar stuff on here and I wanna put in people's blogs that they have or some websites that they like...If you have some that you want to have posted, email me or leave a comment...It's my day off and I've got lots of things to do....Later.

Not a good day

It's only noon and it's already a bad day. I can feel in my bones that it's just going to get worse. Why you ask? Because I have to go to work today at the wonderful wholesale club named BJ's. Customers...wait, sorry...MEMBERS....will probably piss me off because they won't know how to use the stupid self-checkouts that don't even work properly. Okay people, here are some guidelines for the self-checkouts. Read them, learn them, use them or else I'm coming after your dumbass:

*Don't use them if you're in a hurry....they are slower than going to a regular cashier!
*Don't try them if you have two carts full of food and 4 kids squished inside those 2 carts...you're asking for failure.
*When the belt rejects an item and the automated voice says to "please remove all items from the front belt" it doesn't mean for you to leave it on there and to stare at it
*Don't go through self-checkout if you can't pick up every single item out of your cart...there's a reason it's called self-checkout..think about it
*If it keeps rejecting your item, it's not because you didn't throw it on there...so don't...that's why they break
*If you can't read English and don't know how to push buttons on the screen don't use it...please go to a cashier who knows what they are doing

and finally,

*Just because you don't know what you're doing, doesn't give you the right to get mad at employees...you picked the self-checkout....deal with it

So that's just one of many things that will probably piss me off today...but right now there's just too many to get into...have a good day

Nightmares or Wishes?

On Thursday night I had a dream that I was getting married. I was going to be wearing my mother's wedding dress and marrying this guy. I couldn't see the guy's face so don't ask who it was. My Aunt Trudy was helping me get ready and as I started to put on my mother's dress, it turned black and became really short and tight. I mean really short...like stopped at my stomach. So I started screaming and my Aunt Trudy came running and we both freaked out. The groom came running to the dressing room of the church and took one look at me and said "I can't marry you." and walked off. I took off the too tight dress and threw on some clothes but it was too late. He was gone. Then a friend of mine from the Virginia BJ's (his nickname is Shaggy.) walks past me and I grab his arm and say "Do you want to marry me?" He shrugs his shoulders and says "Okay." So my Aunt Trudy grabs him, throws a tux on him (don't know where she got it) and get's him ready while they try to find a dress for me to wear. Then I try to finish getting ready and my hair becomes a mess, my makeup is running, my shoes don't fit...everything that could go wrong, is. So I'm sitting on the floor crying, and my Aunt comes and sits next to me and as she's trying to console me, she turns into Marlena from Days of our Lives. I swear to god it was her. I don't know whether or not I made it down the aisle cause the alarm went off.

Okay, next dream...Last night I had a dream that I was dating Joe again (ill) and I couldn't get ahold of him cause he was in the Army. I tried calling his mom but she wouldn't help cause she's a bitch and doesn't want me to have anything to do with her son. As I'm frantically calling every phone number I could think of, he just suddenly appears in front of me and says "I know you've been looking for me and I'm finally here. But I...." and the damn alarm went off again!

So people, do I subconsciously miss Joe Kraft, my ex-boyfriend who was a jerk even though I love Jim dearly and wouldn't trade him for anything in the world or do I secretly want to see Joe again because I had no closure? And about the other dream...do I actually want to marry Jim or do I just want to get married to get married, especially since I basically just picked some random guy in my dream to get married too? Help me here! I need advice!

New Tax Laws

Subject: New Tax Laws


The only thing the I.R.S. has not taxed is the penis. This is due to the fact that:

40% of the time it's hanging around unemployed,
20% of the time it's pissed off,
30% of the time it's hard up,
10% of the time it's in the hole.

On top of all this, it has two dependents and they are both nuts.

Accordingly, starting January 1, 1998, penises will be taxed according to size. To determine this category, please consult the chart below and confirm this information on Page 2, Section 7, Line 3, of the standard 1040P form.

10 to 12 inches Luxury Tax $50.00
8 to 10 inches Pole Tax $30.00
6 to 8 inches Privilege Tax $15.00
4 to 6 inches Nuisance Tax $ 5.00


PLEASE NOTE: Anyone under 4 inches is eligible for
a refund. Males exceeding 12 inches must file Capital Gains

PLEASE! DO NOT REQUEST AN EXTENSION!!!

Sincerely,


Pecker Checker
Internal Revenue Service



Hope you all enjoy!

I'm being lazy

It's Monday and holy cow I have off from both jobs today. Yippee! I have a list of things to do today and no one around to tell me to do it. Since it's almost a quarter to 3pm, this is the stuff I should have already done today:

*taken a shower
*gone to PepBoys and gotten an inspection and oil change
*updated the blog
*clean the house
*watch Days (Marlena's the killer!)
*typed up some of my story's
*gone to get a NYS license since I still have the Virginia one and my car insurance doesn't like that fact
*cut my hair

Here's what I have done today:
*woke up at 9am and checked email and played games online
*went back to bed at 10am and slept until 2pm
*ate some Froot Loops
*updated the blog

So I'm a little behind on some things..oh well. I guess I'll just have to do some stuff before work tomorrow because I just got my new Cosmo in the mail and I'm not moving from the couch. I wonder what Jim's gonna say when he gets home from work. Don't really care. I'll just give him my cutest little "but I made you dinner" smile...Crap now I have to go to the store. Oh well, hope everyone has a good day. :)

Little Life Rules

Just thought I would share with everyone something I had created a couple of years ago to put a smile on my face whenever I was down. Hope you enjoy.

Little Life Rules:

Don't do too many drugs
make many friends
don't have sex until you're ready
kiss alot
never drive with the emergency brake on
always use your blinkers
never wear white socks with brown sandals
it looks really tacky
do wear pants
don't bomb your place of employment
just kill off your boss
never flirt with ten men (or women) at a time even if you think it's a good idea....it'll only backfire on you in the end
do believe in one true love
respect your parents
never roast marshmallows over the toaster
never throw cats out the window
they don't always land on their feet
follow your dreams....never follow someone else's
use an umbrella when it rains
stay in bed with a good book when it snows
don't listen to love songs when you're sad...they always end up making you feel worse
cornbread (random thought :))
nothing is impossible
always make sure you have enough gas before you leave
save pennies
take the road less traveled
believe in magic
if you're hot, take your clothes off
if you're cold, put clothes on
don't smoke before you have to run ten miles...you won't even finish the first mile
remember, i before e except after c
stay in the lines
don't take up more than one parking space
it's very annoying
make long lasting friends...so you can drive them crazy the same way they do you
reduce, recycle, reuse..especially if you have no money for cigarettes..those little butts come in handy
don't watch talk tv-trash, trash, trash (but only if you're not a redneck-they live for that stuff)
be careful when you zip up your pants
dance
read a children's story (spot has a red ball...)
don't procrastinate...especially when you have to pee
do homework
don't swim in a polluted lake
never pee in a pool...it's just not nice
masturbate whenever the mood strikes ("I need a price check on cucumbers...")
cut your hair...it'll grow back
laugh out loud...it's good for the soul
play a sport even if it's table tennis
never try to lift anyone who's bigger than you
spay and neuter your cats or else your house will smell BAD
obey stoplights
never sleep with a stranger...find out their name first
look both ways before you cross the street
always lock your doors
never blow off a friend...that's what bj's are for
if you must drink and drive, drink Pepsi
be a trend setter
take lots of pictures...your memory may fade but they won't
write love letters
don't let anyone bully you around
Tupac (another random thought)
MAKE LOVE NOT WAR WITH THE CLASS OF '94
read
sing as badly as you can in the shower..who's gonna hear you anyway?
smile even if you want to kill the asshole in front of you
say your prayers...even for the people you don't like very much
and always remember....life is what happens when you're making other plans
so get going
don't just sit there
enjoy life to its fullest


So that's it. I hope you all enjoyed it and if there are little life rules you think I should include you can either leave a comment or email me at vacrakgirl@hotmail.com. Talk to you all later.