Decompressing

It has been a freakin' long ass weekend. Jim and I just got back from spending five days at my dad's babysitting Ivan, my 5 year old stepbrother. Now Ivan is pretty much a normal 5 year old until you tell him to put on his shoes or pick up his toys and then he turns into the DEVIL'S SPAWN.

Now you have to have some patience with him 'cause honestly he's five. What can I do? Smack him around? He's not my kid. So when I'm trying to get him to do something I have to reset to bribery.

"Ivan, if you put on your shoes and jacket, I'll let you play on the computer."

"Ivan, if you pick up your toys, I'll give you some chocolate."

"Ivan, if you put down the knife, I'll try not to beat your ass." - Just kidding!

He really wasn't that bad though. I think I took him to the park just about everyday it wasn't raining. I let him run around with the other kids to burn off some of his energy. That boy loves the spiral slide. He stays on that thing the entire time. He slides down and then climbs back up.

Kacie and I took him to Chuck E. Cheese's on Saturday ( I think...the days are blurred together.) It was kinda nice to be able to let him run around and know that he's not gonna get lost. I must admit the kid grew on me. I can't wait to have kids. Jim on the other hand will probably never want kids after this weekend. For the most part, I could control Ivan and use the force on him to bend him to my will. Jim on the other hand....let me put it this way. On Easter I was off and was with him all day. He played in his room most of the day and he came out for a bit and we colored...everything was cool...Jim came home from work so I went to do laundry downstairs. I get outside to smoke a cigarette and I can hear them screaming at each other. Yes...my bf was arguing with a 5 year old.

In under 5 minutes, tempers exploded and ear drums were burst. As soon as I walked back in the house, everything was fine again. I don't get it.

On top of babysitting, I did work...at 6am. Which meant that as soon as Ivan was in bed at 9pm I went to bed so I could get up at 5am. And then also worked out after work and then had to stay up until after 9pm each night unless Jim was off from work.

I feel like I'm babbling but you know what....it's my blog and I can so deal with it.

Wanna hear about some weird ass dreams I've had the past two nights?

Monday night I had a dream that I was at work at BJ's. But it was like an open market where there was no roof or walls and everyone worked outside. Anyway, I was working at my desk and I had brought Ivan with me to work when all of a sudden it starts to snow. Actually a blizzard ensues. It's freezing and Ivan is sitting on my lap trying to keep warm. I realize that's he's gonna get hypothermia and that I have to save him and get him inside where it's warm. So I'm running around trying to find a manager so I can get permission to leave work and go home. Right when Robert says I can go home I wake up and realize that my heart is pounding hard. It doesn't sound all that scary but it was really intense.

My dream last night was weirder. It was me, my dad, brother, sister in law and niece. We were inside our house when all of a sudden an explosion happened behind our house and the house shifted on it's foundation; ready to collapse. We all got outside the house when we realized that we left the cats inside. So I decide to go back in the house to find my cats. But it was kinda like a fun house on the inside 'cause if you went to one side of the house, it would rock like it was gonna fall but if you ran back to the other side, it would stop. It was weird. After searching for my cats, I found them and right as I stepped out of the house, it collapsed and I woke up.

Does anyone out there have any idea what these mean? The only thing I can think of is that I'm trying to protect or rescue something that means a lot to me. Anyone have any other ideas? Let me know.

Well, jeez, this is pretty long. It's 10pm and I have to get up at 5am. Later people.