This week has just been more stress in my life. I have alot of money problems and since I moved back from Virginia I've just been ignoring them. Partly because I was just hoping they would go away and partly 'cause I was hoping I would get a better job than BJ's and be able to take care of it. But like everything else in my life that didn't happen. I didn't get a better job yet and the problems haven't gone away. And they came back in a big way this past week. I've pretty much decided that I'm not gonna go back to school like I had wanted to. Mainly cause I got turned down for the NY TAP grant. I can't afford to take out more school loans. I'm gonna be stuck at BJ'S for the rest of my life. And I don't want to be. It's just really depressing. It's gonna take me probably about 5 years to get completely out of debt with my credit cards. Probably longer to pay off what school loans I already have. I can't defer those forever. Maybe if the cost of living didn't keep going up maybe I could save a little here and there to go to school but just putting gas in my car is starting to take away from bills.
No. I'm not looking for a handout. Just telling the god-awful truth. This economy sucks and I don't see it getting any better. Especially with the monkey we have sitting in Washington. If I could buy a new car, I would buy a hybrid so that I could save money on gas but I can't even pay the $35 inspection for the crappy Kia I have now. I'm lucky I have a roof over my head and a great boyfriend who pays for everything (I pay majority of rent). One can only call their 'rents so many times to ask for money. It's not fair to them and frankly, I feel extremely guilty for it.
This post is turning into something I don't want it to turn in to. Later.
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Cmon, this post is nothing compared to mine. ;)
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