Hello everyone. Sorry it's been so long since I've actually posted anything. It's been a long summer already. June and July pretty much sucked since my car got repossessed and I had no way of going anywhere. I hated trying to find rides to work every week and sometimes having to take a cab 'cause no one could take me. But I have a new car (new to me anyway) and although it's a stick, I'm getting better at it.

So anyone that was following me not smoking...you can stop. I started again the day my car got repossessed. But I did go 17 days without a smoke and I plan on stopping again in time for my birthday (August 30th). Luckily my best friend has also quit so that will make it a little easier since I'm at her house three times a week.

I went to the doctor's today for a mental health checkup. I'm doing fine so he decided to raise my dosage. Is something wrong with that sentence? I figured if I was doing good on it, it would stay the same. Guess he knows something I don't. I also found out that since the last time I was there (June 14), I lost 9 lbs. Go me! I should have know since I was able to fit into my thin shorts yesterday. It's the best news I've had all week.

So I have a new car.

It makes me happy. Except for that whole fuel pump not working the day I picked it up and sitting at some random gas station in Leroy for three hours while Jim, Kacie and I tried to figure out what to do. Thank god for AAA. That guy got my car working by banging on the gas tank! Drove it all the way home and took it out for errands the next day with my upstairs neighbor and don't you know it wouldn't start again. So after freaking out 'cause I had to go to work still and I was stuck in Tops parking lot with a guy who is braindead from smoking too much weed, I call Colleen and she comes out and I get under my car and bang on the gas tank. Hooray! It starts! I drive it home and the damn thing won't turn on again. To make a long story short, I needed a new fuel pump. A $200 fuel pump. A $200 fuel pump that I didn't have money for. Jim was fabulous enough to charge my fuel pump to his credit card and the next day Orlando came over and got it installed and running for me. Except for the three large gas stains on my driveway, you'd never know anything was wrong with it. Oh...except for the large oil stains that mysteriously appeared a week after the fuel pump got fixed. That was fun. That's called my front valve cover gasket was broken and I was leaking oil. So once again Orlando came out and fixed that. Luckily that was only $30 or else I would have just crashed the damn car and asked for the insurance. But lo and behold, that was easy to fix. Within an hour, he had fixed the leak and did an oil change. As much as I think Orlando is horrible for Jen and not a good father figure, he sure knows what he's doing with cars. Hopefully nothing else will go wrong with it for awhile.

So Jim and I are...still sleeping in the same bed. We don't know what we are. We can't decide if we want to still live together and get a 2 bedroom or if we want to live by ourselves. It changes everyday. We are really both lost right now (relationship wise I mean) and every day it changes. Neither one of us really is looking towards the future anymore. The furthest I can see is Friday and Saturday 'cause I know I have to work. Other than that, neither of us knows if this is gonna work out for the better or if we are going to go our seperate ways. We just don't know.

Well, it's off to do some errands. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!

Later.