If I wasn't so damn tired from this damn new job that I sorta, kinda, don't really know what I'm doing, I would probably talk all about how I got one day of training and then was sent off and told to do it. That one day of training probably would have been enough if my new immediate manager wasn't the manager on duty that day and she could have explained things as we went. But I forget that it's the BJ'S way to just drop someone in a new position and lo and behold, you're just supposed to be able to do something that you've never done in your entire life. I kinda know the gist of it, but there are somethings that I just completely have no idea what the f**k I'm doing so I pretend that I'm bullshitting my way through and honestly, I don't even think I'm pulling that off. Oh and plus, not only do I have the stuff I have to do for this new job but they've added two new things that I have to do that the old person never had to do. And they wonder why I can't get any of my paperwork done or counts finished.
Luckily it is only the first week so it should get easier, right? RIGHT? Oh dear god, please make me not regret taking this job.
I think for the first time in a year, I actually miss the frontline. But that's probably just because I'm my own person and really don't have anyone to talk to like I used to on the frontline. Am I babbling? 'Cause it feels like I'm babbling. Maybe I should go take a nap. Maybe I should just start going to bed earlier. But I already go to bed at 9pm. I should just put a cot in my office and sleep there. It'll be easier than having to drive in the snow at 5:30am and then I could actually maybe get some stuff done before 9am for once. Yeah that's it. I'm so there.