Officially a student

So I am all registered for school in January. I'm taking 5 classes but one is for only half the semester and one is online. Anyone ever take an online class before? Are they hard? If you need help, can you get it? Or are they just really simple as long as you actually read the book?

Jim and I are getting along so much better now that we don't live together. He spent the night last Thursday (shocking!) and then I spent the night at his house Sunday. I helped him make three different kinds of fudge that he's going to be handing out as Christmas presents. Sucks that his family is celebrating Christmas on Thanksgiving which means I won't see him for our normal Thursday night routine. Oh well. I'm starting to get used to this whole not seeing/calling him for days at a time. Does this mean that we are back together the way we were? No. Just means we are having fun. Honestly, I don't know what we are and I'm not in a hurry to use labels. I just know that I get butterflies again when I know I'm going to see him. "Giggle"

I'm still waiting to get back my security deposit from the old apartment. I wish they would hurry up with it already cause I have a list of things I need to buy and it just keeps getting longer. The first thing I have to buy are brakes for my car, then Christmas presents then new contacts. And then misc. stuff that I really don't want to buy but I have to cause I'm an adult and responsible adults buy shit that they need. Ugh.

Everyone have a happy Thanksgiving.

Snoopy Dance

I got my admittance letter in the mail today. Hooray! After I came down from cloud 9, I realized they had enrolled me in the wrong program. Hopefully, since I have registration on Monday, I can get that fixed. Anyone wants to send me money in the next 2 months to pay for this, I won't turn them down. Or you know, I'll take congratulations too. :)

Wish me luck

So I finished my application for school today. Let's hope something good comes out of this mess called my current life.

Feeling like a fish out of water

It hasn't been a week just yet and I feel so out of place. Nothing seems familiar here, although I used to be here constantly. I miss my old apartment where there was open spaces and no children. Where I knew where the garbage bags were and where the clean dishes go. When I didn't have to put my dog in her kennel when I wasn't home. How I at least had someone to come home to even though I knew we would fight. My life was predictable a week ago and now I'm trying to figure out the fastest way to get home.

I've already babysat twice this week so my roommate could go out with her new boyfriend. I'm happy that she finally has someone who is going to treat her right. I just wish I was going to wake up next to someone who loved me as well.

Do I miss Jim? Yes. I miss the Jim I fell in love with 5 years ago. Do I miss the Jim I just moved away from? No. He wasn't the same and frankly, neither am I.

Some days I feel like I can do anything and be anyone and other days, it's just a struggle to make it to 9pm. I know I can get through this...I've gotten through so much worse. I want so much to be a strong black woman like my mother was but sometimes I just feel like a little girl pretending that she fits in when all she really wants to do is hide from the world. I just want to be strong and independent and able to handle life's little and big curves.