Wishing School was over already

So I'm sitting here in what Maica and I used to call the Italian Restaurant. It's really just a large opening with several tables, chairs, electrical plugs (thank God), and a little coffee shop. I'm sitting here and there is a guy that looks just like Army Boy. Oh dear Lord, I can't stop staring at him. I know he doesn't look like him now, but several years ago, I would have just gone right up to him and started talking not realizing it wasn't him. He's absolutely beautiful.

So I'm over this whole going to school for 3 hours a class thing. I should have taken some online classes this semester. Ugh!

So everyday this past weekend I had to take my Xanax. It was mainly to sleep which scares me 'cause I don't want to be dependent on this stuff to fall asleep. Sunday night I took it, after watching the SuperBowl, and I still only got about an hour of sleep. And then I got sick at work. Like so sick I was beginning to think maybe I had the stomach flu again like last February. So I went home and tried to get some sleep for an hour cause I was determined to make it to my 2pm class. That soooooooo didn't happen. RG&E stopped by and had to get in the house to change the meters so needless to say I left work early, missed school, and didn't get any real homework done because of this stupid anxiety medicine. So I decided not to take them at all yesterday and I slept for like 11 hours. I haven't taken any today. I have a bit of anxiety but I should be okay as long as my professor isn't boring.

god damn, I wish I was 10 years younger. There are some fine boys at school today. And I'm entirely too old for most of them. Blah! I don't need a man anyway. I don't have time for myself, my homework, or my dog let alone having a serious relationship right now. Maybe when school is over in May and I find myself a good job with normal hours.

The thing with the job I have isn't that the pay is bad. I make decent money. The problem is that I'm only allowed to work 30 hours a week and those hours are technically all over the place. I have no set schedule and I never know what I'm working from one week to the next. If they would give me 40 hours and a normal schedule that never changes I would totally stay there. But I know that will never happen so to school I go to get a certification and get a "real" job.

Darn, Army boy look-a-like is talking to some girl who really isn't that cute looking. Oh well, he's still fun to look at and he's got a gorgeous smile. I do find it a bit ironic that he's wearing a camouflage baseball hat. I think it could possibly be a sign to stay far, far, far, away from him.

I guess I should start packing my stuff up so I can go smoke and get to class.

Later.